I'm Too Afraid To Write A Book
Whenever I come across a story from one of you talking about what it was like to publish your first book, deal with publishers, distribution, and all that, I get quite excited. I even save articles with tips for writers about publishing theirs.
The funny thing is, I've never tried to write something that takes me more than three days to do.
Ironically, although I try to be the best writer I can be and work to improve, writing a book has never been in my close plans.
Do you want to be a writer and do not plan to publish a book? It's like a basketball player who doesn't plan on getting drafted!
I know it sounds strange, but I'm sure many of you will understand.
Don't get me wrong, tho. I don't underestimate the importance and work of writing a book, it just feels like an imposed milestone, although I don't rule out that maybe one day I will try.
Maybe I have to face the fact that I am not good enough to write a book, not even a short story. Maybe just by not wanting to try, it automatically turns me into someone not talented enough. Sounds paradoxical, right? Maybe I'm being unnecessarily hard on myself and this is just one phase. A phase that has lasted 5 years.
I'm the Eminem of Medium
I really admire all those who are capable of building characters, settings, plots, arcs, and situations. Sometimes an interesting premise occurs to me, and I try to unravel the story and think what it would be like, that exercise never lasts more than 15 minutes. I get stuck, I just come up with clichés and I give up.
Although I don't even have to be good at creating stories, to begin with. Not every good musician should master the guitar. You wouldn't judge a rapper musically by his inability to sing opera.
That's who I am, I'm a blogging rapper. Particularly good at a specific aspect of writing and with a very low life expectancy.
Maybe my first book is about a SoundCloud rapper who didn't make it and starts a blog on Medium.
He begins to gain fame and followers with his introspective stories about the streets, class struggles, power, and race.
However, as his work becomes more popular, he begins to gain enemies along the way. The elites do not want him to continue spreading messages of social awakening and revolution.
So five masked men in an SUV drive up to his house in the middle of the night and cut the power lines. He'll have to wait until it's daytime to call the utility company and send someone to repair it. The messenger was silenced for 14 hours, but the message lives on.
I still have to work harder on the third act.
By the way, if you steal my idea, I will be very upset.
Being the best unpublished writer ever
I wonder who is the richest and most famous writer who has never written a book. Perhaps the best writer on BuzzFeed or Vice.
I'm not 100% sure where I wanted to go with this rant. Maybe someone will read this and be impressed by my words. Maybe someone will send the police to my house. I would not blame you in either scenario.
Perhaps my final conclusion is that you should not feel pressured to follow the path that others have traveled, even if it is in your own field. Although you may need to put the excuses aside and focus on doing the things you know you need to do.
I will continue to develop the idea of the blogger rapper. I would like to read your opinions if you have felt the same as me and what my main character's street name could be.
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